tonight is thai... soo good!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
impromtu crab feed!!!
it was on sale at owajimaya!! and @heather jones has never had dungy. the tecate and chinese brocolli just made it that much more perfect!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
oops.. i accidentally wore this to the store...
I forgot I was wearing travis' cougar cubby ears.. and I totally made oogy eyes at some hotty in the express lane!!! say goodnight gracie...
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I just came across these photos of the lsat time I was home and i got to go silver fishing with my mom. It was a great day, and I learned a ton about commercial fishing.. there is an art to the timing of the hooks and it feels good that there are some ways of life that effect us every day that are as simple as a hook and some line.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
mad men dinner party.
dinner went off with a couple hitches but easily remedied... thank you Molly Moon for the use of your freezer, and your ice cream for a monumental baked alaska!!!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
beef wellington
ind. beef wellington with brown butter chantrelles. and fallen leaves to commemorate the weather....
beef wellington
ind. wellingtons with brown butter chantrelles..and fallen leaves to commemorate the season.
beef wellington
ind. wellingtons with brown butter chantrelles..and fallen leaves to commemorate the season.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
the hole in the wall
I used pink spackle for breaast cancer awareness... every little bit counts...the drill was for screwing into studs ' I love screwing studs!' could not have done it without Misty and jeff.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Foodsnap ... Friday Sept 18th.
The light in the studio, a beautiful open space in one of the old Rainier Beer bottling buildings, though the floor to ceiling windows wreaked a little havoc on the delicate edible cocktails we we brought along. There was no shortage of light.
We brought cucumber gelee to event, tragically the heat in the studio made photographing gelee quite a challenge, and for that matter the copious amounts of vodka in each one of these tasty edible cocktails made them hard to resist. I was preoccupied watching the trays of them jiggle as I walked the room offering up samples to the busy photographers, but I took a moment to snap a couple photos myself.
While I have no idea how these little gems tasted, their sweetness and contrast of petals and pastel against the distressed wood table they rested on was enough to catch my attention. The petaled rose cupcake looked as if it were in a suspended state of melt. I will make my way to Wink in hopes they taste as good as they photograph.
house cured salmon eggs
My first attempt at curing salmon eggs. Kathy got some fresh eggs from a neighbor and I cured them in sugar salt and a little soy. The result delicate balance between sweet salty and briny. The only real challenge is getting the menbrane off of ther egg sack, but totally worth it.
Monday, September 7, 2009
solo quiero libertad
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Late night ramblings
I returned to Seattle via Alaska, where for a millisecond I thought I'd move back and reap the small pond benefits of being a big fish. It was fleeting, but in Seattle, in the midst of unseasonably warm fall, there loomed a question mark trialed slightly by an exclamation point. Mt Rainer appeared voluptuous and awkward in the distance when looked at with eyes that had since become unacustomed to the ebb and flow of geography. The city curved and danced around hillsides and expanses of water, the skyscrapers only tickled the sky with the slightes threat of scrape. People wore jeans like jeans should be worn, not with mile high heels and matching handbags encrusted with diamonds. Pabst was only a couple bucks a pitcher, because it's what people like to drink not because it's ironic (well only slightly). The world just seemed a little smaller and the grass undeniably greener. It was an intoxicating and magical buzz . In an instant it was milk and honey, it was the path of least resistance. I had forever argued that to turn back to a place I had already been was a mark of failure. My forward momentum had brought me full circle and the thought of return was not such a bleak idea.
Then there was a boy, there is always a boy. For days we lay twisted and giggling, the thick blanket over his window masked any distinction between dawn and night. We drank beer and played video games and waxed romantic about all the things we had in common, the years we'd known each other and the good friends we shared, and how those friends had partitioned off with each other, forming a nucleus of friendship thick as blood and only slightly more salty. I always thought an accomplice would come to me defined as my corresponding crazy, that it would simply take time and patience and dedication to someone other than myself. This had to be him. We were the two oddballs, the two slightly damaged, somehow we earned and deserved each other at the same time. There was a certain change of momentum in the air and I was willing to leap and let the net appear.
Last year at the same time, the Labor in Labor day was again a waterlogged life jacket on a sinking ship of doubts. One rainy afternoond I sat by the ship canal crying, convinced I was pregnant, dying of sinus cancer and freaked the fuck out that I was about to become Chef of a French restaurant with no more knowledge in French Cuisine than I had when I left Culinary School and a couple of books from the library. But as the owner of the place had so boldly proclaimed, I apparently a 'set of balls' worth taking a risk on. It didn't make me feel any better to levy that much faith on a set of anatomy I didn't even have.
The aliens in my sinus were escaping through my nose, making me sick, and smelling of dead meat. So much that everything I tasted or breathed smelled like rotting flesh. A bit of a handicap when you've stepped onto the line as Chef in a kitchen full of boys who think your a 'skirt' from 'some Mexican Restaurant' who knows nothing of pot eu feu.
Furthermore, there was nothing sexy about the shit coming my nose. Like I'd returned from the mother ship in some science fiction movie, and now the 'thing' is trying to get out. And the cursed snoring! Leaves no appetite for promiscuity, except the rare occasion when the boy I thought I loved would now do little more than grace me with his presence long enough to keep me from feeling I had any other choice but to be crumpled up and disposed of then picked throught the garbage and retrieved at will.
Labor Day has become my milestone, my new year, and I am sad to report that I still snore.
But, I am compelled to gush to my four followers and whomever is bored enough at work to read through my rambling sentence structure that I am what you might call 'happy'.
It seems foreign to say. The black oil of doubt that coats and covers everything in the deepest moments of self loathing seems to have been washed clear, momentum has shifted.
I have found my way back to a place where I feel worth something. Where I feel smart and beautiful. Where I have something to move toward. I have retrieved my self worth from the trash and will no longer need the fleeting invites of the damned to make me feel sexy and alive.
I am writing a happy ending. I am writing that million dollar check that will manifest itself on sheer faith....
Even as started this four days ago, the doubt set in suddenly. That little tick in my brain started up it's engines ready to rumba around my head setting to motion a series of doubts that could bring the house down.
But, then I have days like today and days like last week and days to look forward to. That will most certainly do. I will leap and the net will appear.